I Will Be There – “I Never Want to Say Goodbye to You” – Part 8 of 10

New Album, "I Will Be There" Available on Randm Records!

New Album, “I Will Be There” Available on Randm Records!

After that depressing post yesterday, I think you’ve got to be in the mood for something a little more positive, don’t you think? Today’s post is about the last happy song on the record.

The Story
The story is pretty basic. I was dating my ex, and we were getting ready to go on the US tour last year. (She was planning on coming with me to Seattle, before I left for the rest of tour.) It was definitely a high time in our relationship, and she gave me one of the best compliments I’d received. One night, when she was leaving my house, she kissed me and said, “Ugh… I never want to say, “Goodbye” to you!”

I literally said, “I’m stealing that!” And started writing. I think the song took about 20 minutes to write. I liked the idea of a “Dean Martin-ish” type of song. I can imagine this song being recorded in the 60’s with a big band behind it, but I’m completely satisfied with the “country” version of it as well!

The Song
I never knew

I could have someone like you
Who makes all of my dreams come true
And makes me feel, Alright (I have this way of thinking… I need to change it… but for some reason, sometimes, I feel like I’m not going to fall in love/something is always going to get in the way. Anyways… back to the song.)

I never dreamed
That this could happen to me
Now it’s all peaches and cream
And I feel, Alright (Heh! I don’t think I’ve ever had “Peaches and Cream”… It sounds good though!)

And I never wanna fight,
And I never wanna cry
And I never wanna see you with another guy,
Oh, I never want to say “goodbye” to you. (You can’t tell me that chorus isn’t catchy!)

I never thought
Someone could make me fall
Heel over head like you doll
And now I feel, Alright (I liked the idea of mixing up “Head over Heels” because that seems normal… “Heel over head”??? Now THAT’s love!)

I never thunk
I could be so far awestruck
Spiking my heart with your love
And now I feel, Alright (I like two parts of this. One- Using the word, “Thunk”. My mom’s an ex-English teacher… So that was fun. Two- the idea of love being so intoxicating, that it spikes the blood. The little girl inside of me gets all giddy with that idea… Carry on…)


And all I wanna do is kiss you
And all I wanna do is hold you tight
And all I wanna do is love you    
And make your world as good as you’ve made mine (I imagined that first line having a bunch of girls go, “AWWWWEEEEE” but in reality, if all you wanted to do is kiss and hug, it would be really weird… Maybe for a little bit, it would be cool…. but that’s a long, long time…:-P

So that’s it! That’s the depth of this one. I appreciate those of you who have told me this is your favorite song on the album! I think it’s incredibly cute, and why hipsters don’t like me.  See you tomorrow!

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I Will Be There – “Not Yours” – Part 7 of 10

New Album, "I Will Be There" Available on Randm Records!

New Album, “I Will Be There” Available on Randm Records!

The Backstory
I’m about to sound like a crotchety and bitter old man…

For those of you who don’t know the story, I guess you need to know the backstory- I fell in love with a girl at a show. Like… Immediately. I saw her outside when I was playing at Queen Bee’s and I was, believe it or not, hanging out with my buddy, Seth Combs. I told him straight up, “I’m going to meet that girl.” And I sang my set, she came up to me after the show and I took her out the next night. During that time, I had started writing my “Song a day” and had planned on doing thirty days. I wrote a song called, “Stay” while she was sitting next to me on the couch, and I still remember her kissing me right after I finished writing the song… One of my most favorite moments.

She graduated from college and moved to Los Angeles. We talked every day and every night. After 5 months, I contemplated moving, and she and I decided that I should. I quit my job, got a temp job in LA and planned on easing into the move. Unfortunately the day that I got to LA, she stopped answering her phone. I tried to figure out what had happened, but figured that she had a problem with her phone. I finally talked to her roommate who gave me the couple of things of mine that she had and with an, “I’m sorry”. closed the gate on me…. One of my least favorite moments.

This song was written a few months after this story.

The Cowrite
I’ve sat on this song for about three years. It’s another one of those incredibly personal songs that I had the opportunity to share with another songwriter. Melissa Polinar is, and has been one of the most talented people I’ve ever met. Her latest album is one of my favorites, and I’d encourage you to give her a listen. (My personal favorite is, “See the Stars” a three-part harmony song with my friends Ernie Halter and Matt Cusson.)

I had tried to write with Melissa a few times, but scheduling was a problem. (She lives between Dallas and LA, and when you’re as good as she is, you get good shows…) :-) I had just finished moving to LA and gone through the worst and hardest, non-closure type of breakups I’ve ever experienced. When I told Melissa about it, she sympathized like an old friend would. I think of all the things I like about her, that’s my favorite- she has the ability to really care about you, even before she knows you. (Tied for second is her voice and songwriting!) The original version had a rad three part harmony the entire way through the song, but we scratched it in this new arrangement- (didn’t really work with the sound on the record.) I’m so into this version of it! I hope that you are too.

We sat down and wrote this song at the SESAC building in Los Angeles. It was exactly what I needed at the time. I had gained 50 pounds from the depression and lack of motivation and hadn’t written a good song in weeks. This song immediately kicked off a dozen songs that would end up being most of my last album, “Hope”. I had a disagreement with my last producer on this song, and so we ended up not using it. However, when my producer for the new record, Mike Butler heard it, he told me it was an immediate, “We have to record this song!” and when he told me that, I knew I wanted to work with him, immediately.

Melissa and I have never really talked about where the lines came from, but I can tell you my side of it. So here it goes:

Why does it seem so hard
Why is my heart a mess
Why is it difficult to breathe 

There were nights where I was literally so heartbroken, I couldn’t breathe. It blew my mind that someone that I had cared about, so much, that I would plan with her to move out of a city I loved and start over in LA, was absolutely crushing. I’ve never felt that bad, and I hope I don’t again.

When will I ever learn
When will this ever end
When will I finally be freed

More of the same. It felt like I couldn’t escape it, no matter what I tried.

I thought I was over you                 
But I guess you went and proved me wrong

Probably the worst part of being a writer, is the idea that my brain doesn’t shut off. When I sleep, I write. I can’t tell you how many times, even now, she’ll show up in my dreams, telling me that it was such a mistake, and that she wants me to come back. I’ve woken up in tears more time to count and it all comes rushing back when I finally get to hold her… then wake up and realize it was a dream, and I’m all alone. That’s got to be the single worst torture a heart can have.

Take me out of this prison
Break these bars and let me go 
Cause I’m not yours

Don’t make me drink from your poison
Baby, I’d rather be alone
Cause I’m not yours, Anymore

To me, the chorus is basically an affirmation that this is done. Similar to an exorcism, I am casting her out, and she is no longer allowed to haunt me.

How can I justify?
Another restless night?
Of dreaming dreams for you

(See above… sigh…)

Why haven’t I realized
After seeing through all your lies
That my dreams will not come true

(I guess I’m good at repeating myself, huh?)

I want to be over you
But I hear your song calling me back

Did I mention she was/is a singer? Her voice reminded me of Leanne Rimes. I don’t listen to her, anymore…ever. I also can’t watch Reese Witherspoon movies, and don’t even get me started on the show “Nashville”. I can’t see Hayden Panettiere and not think about this girl. So frustrating! We’re talking 4 years later? There’s definitely something wrong with my head.


You have no power over me
Now I’m finally, fine on my own

Last chance- last affirmation. This is the final straw. One of the biggest bummers to me was when Melissa and I recorded this song on my Macbook, I completely missed these notes. I probably would have released the song lo-fi if I hadn’t. I love the desperation in the last notes of “own”. It just trails off- almost like throwing my feelings off of a cliff and watching them fade away. If it was that easy, I probably couldn’t write. But alas, I have to repeat the chorus again… even more pathetically so you understand that I am really hurting… Ha!


The End
Wow… after re-reading this post, that was pretty personal. I hope you guys don’t feel bad for me or hold it against me. I believe life is supposed to be the highs and the lows. That’s what makes it beautiful. If you always have okay to good times, you don’t experience everything in it’s full color. If you always have bad times, you’ll be a bitter old man. I may still end up as one, but not because of her- because I choose to be. I’m working on it. Leave me alone. And get off my lawn.

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I Will Be There – “The Day That You Left Me” – Part 6 of 10

This was probably the most anticipated song on the record. I have met more ladies who could not wait to have this song on their iPods after hearing it at a concert. “That song is PERFECT!!! I must have it!!!” Poor girls. I wrote it after a breakup as a joke, and I didn’t think it was going to be as funny/perfect for breakups as it apparently is.

Here we go…

When you broke my heart
I nearly died
Sat on my mama’s porch
And I cried all night
My father said, “Son,
You should be wild and free.” It’s actually kind of funny, there’s no way that I’d do that… my mom would tell me to get over it… AND my dad would never tell me to go be wild and free… that’s just not how they view life.

Yeah you had a lot of nerve
When you kicked me to the curb
I started swearing like a sailor (Nope… I wouldn’t do that.)
Using every dirty word
So I guess what I am saying,
Is you really left a mark on me

Cause I started having fun
The day that you left me (That might be true…)

I started playing banjo
Cause I know that you like Jay-z (Cause that’s ridiculous…)
I grew out my mustache
When you said it looked bad on me (I don’t think it looks that bad on me…)
Got myself a new tattoo
When You said you like your men clean
 (Yeah, I’d probably do that…)
I did everything I wanted
And I never ever felt so free
Yeah, I started having fun
The day that you left me

I started smoking cigarettes (No, I didn’t… that’s bad for you.)
You said you didn’t like the smell
Got myself a motorbike
Cause you’d worry if I ever fell (I’d be sad for me too…)
I started watching baseball games
When you said that it was boring as hell (Baseball is AWESOME!)
Oh, I did everything I wanted
And I’ve never ever felt so free
Yeah, I started having fun
The day that you left me

Sure I still miss you sometimes
When I think of all the fun we had
Watching all those daytime soaps
Instead of watching Breaking Bad (NOBODY is in charge of my viewing schedule…)
Cuddling every night
Instead of going out with my friends
Wait… did I just say that I missed that?
Cause, I don’t. (I can’t believe that Randm Records let me record this song… That’s a silly lyric…)

Got myself a kick ass band (I did!)
Started listening to Duran Duran (Totally didn’t…)
Bought myself an RV and (I’d like to!)
Went camping on Lake Michigan (That just rhymed…)

I danced my ass off every night (Nope… I’m a Baptist.)
Lost a tooth in bar room fight (Come on… Who’d wanna fight me? I’m far too nice…)
I just started living life
And kissing every single girl in sight (HA! I wish!)

Yeah I started having fun
Yeah I started having fun
You know, I started having fun 
(Okay… we get it…)
The day that you left me

So that’s the song! Light and fluffy… And now you can hear it! :-)
See you tomorrow!

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I Will Be There – “It’s Hard to Make a Heart Forget” – Part 5 of 10

This is a song that a lot of people have told me is their favorite track on the new record. I had recorded a version of it for the last album, “Hope”, but that album already had 17 other tracks on it, and I thought it better to sit on this one a little bit longer. I’m glad it was worth the wait! :-)

The Story
I had been invited by the folks over at GreenRoots in Los Angeles to attend a songwriting meet-up. They would take 15 writers, split them up, and then after a couple hours, everyone would come back together and share the songs that they had written. I love cowriting, as I said the other day, and this sounded awesome to me. At the same time, I was pretty nervous about who I would be matched up with. (There are some people that I don’t necessarily get along with in LA… if you didn’t know…)

We all met up at Mikal Blue’s studio, Revolver Studios, in Thousand Oaks, and were put into groups. I won the lottery and got in one of the biggest rooms with two of my favorite people in the entire world- Nina Storey and JT Spangler. This would be one of the best nights that I had when I was living in LA.

We all sat down in our room- Nina at her keyboard, and JT and I across the room with our guitars and started getting to work. JT started with sharing a line he had written- “It’s hard to make a heart forget…” and Nina and I both coo’d “OOOOOOOoooooooo…” We started with the chorus, and it took about an hour. I was feeling a little down about it taking so long, but I felt good about it, because we stuck to the format, and it fit really well.

We then moved to the verses. JT was the one who’s voice we were writing for, so it was a little out of my range, but he had some great ideas like when he said, “I like to throw in a line that throws people off, like “It took all my composure…” I don’t think people say things like that… Nina and I agreed.

We all threw lines back and forth, and eyes were getting pretty teary in there. Nina and I had just gone through breakups and it was fresh for both of us. (JT would go through a break up soon afterwards… but I doubt it was cause of the song… but I’m not going to rule that out…)

We finished the first verse, and we had about an hour and a half before we were supposed to be finished. There is a funny joke that we started where if someone needs to leave for the restroom, they say something to the effect of, “I need to use the restroom… finish the song while I’m gone and put my name on it…” It was a JT’s turn to use the commode, and I told Nina to write down whatever I sang. I started freestyling the second verse and…. I don’t want to brag… but KNEW that I nailed it, when I looked up and saw her absolutely sobbing behind the keyboard. I ran over and gave her a hug, (made sure she actually HAD written it down…) and we cried it out. JT came back and said, “Are you guys done?” and we both looked up and said, “Kinda…” I played it for him, and he said, “Brilliant!” and we worked on the bridge.

When we went into the meeting room to play our song for everyone else, we went second to last. I think we all felt pretty confident, because all three of us loved our song- However, when the other artists started playing their songs, they were all positive and happy! I started feeling pretty awkward and whispered to Nina, “We are totally going to ruin this party…” Sure enough, when we played, I can still remember tears in Angelique Sheppard’s (Owner of GreenRoots) eyes when she said, “This is exactly why we do what we do.”

And here’s your song!

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I Will Be There – “Tennessee” – Part 4 of 10

Tennessee. I dig it. Kinda.

The City
I’ve been able to spend a bit of time in Nashville, Tennessee during my career. I have even thought about moving there a few times! The first encounter I had with Nashville was in 2008, when I was selected for the top 30 for a TV show on NBC called, “Nashville Star”. I was nervous, self-conscious about my weight, and ended up ultimately psyching myself out while being sequestered in my room during the auditions. I can honestly remember it being one of the lowest, most depressing moments in my career, when I was told that I didn’t make the show, and was flying back to California.

I think of that moment often, when I come into parts of my career that feel like setbacks. You have your imagination be let free by the possibility of getting on a show, only to have it come crashing down when some producer doesn’t think you’d be the right “Fit”. As I’ve gotten older, and with the help of my label, Randm Records, I’ve seen that those types of shows, (American Idol, The Voice, Etc…) Aren’t really what music is about. For some reason, somewhere down the road, it became about that- and it’s ruined the entire music experience/industry for me.

Some could say, “You’re just crying about sour grapes, cause you didn’t make the show…” But is it? I’ve auditioned multiple times and been called back and ultimately not chosen, but do I really want to be some pre-taped/canned version of myself, or would I rather do it my own way, with my own words. In a way, I guess that’s what this whole blog is about. You know that those TV shows would HATE to have me say what I really was thinking backstage… And doesn’t the same, “Oh whoa is me… I’ll never make it in the music biz, because I’ve gone through this and this…” into, “I’m just so happy to be here!!!” into, “I can’t believe I won!!!” get old after a while? I just want to say this. “I did my best, wrote the best songs I could, and performed them for people who were feeling the way I do.”

That’s the first part of what Tennessee is about. It’s about the disconnect between the actual music industry, and the glitz and glam of the “fame game” that it’s become. Why do I have to worry about people judging my appearance/care of some stupid radio dj likes my song? Why can’t I just be happy with playing a song I wrote at an open mic, and going back to where I was when this all began in 2006? I used to LIVE for showing up to gigs. Now, sometimes it feels like a chore. I do more behind the scenes, than the actual thing I want to do- play and write and sing. Randm Records has been doing their best to give me that opportunity again and I’m running with it.

The Girl
I mean… one of my songs that wasn’t about a girl??? psh… probably not gonna happen… right? :-P

I had a close friend who I had fallen for a few times… (The whole “Push Me-Pull You” effect…) And she ended up moving to Tennessee. When she did, she also changed. We talked regularly, and then out of nowhere, she just disappeared. I’ve tried to figure out what happened, but sometimes, you just got to let it go. When I refer to her in the song, it’s usually about the idea of friends who become too “big” or “busy” to still keep you as a friend. I don’t know if that’s what happened in this case, but I do know that this song has taken on a whole knew meaning since she started ignoring me. Here’s the play-by-play:

The Song
My dear, Tennessee 
(Tennessee being the Music Industry and the Girl)
Well, you’re just too big for me (Music Industry and Girl – not worth paying attention to me) 
Your neon lights lay heavy on my sky (Girl/ Your memory brings me down. Industry/ Your glitz and glamour brings me down)

Oh what have you done, 
What great city you’ve become (Girl and Industry – You’ve changed, congrats.)
To let the minstrels sing before they die (Girl – Thanks for the last hoorah, before you hurt me/ Industry- Thanks for letting us sing before you tear us apart)

Say a prayer for me
All you saints of Galilee (This is directed at all of my fans/friends/possibly even angels… Please think about me while I struggle with this- Mike Butler suggested this line, and I really dug it. I originally had said, “Saints and pixies”.)
Cause I don’t know who I will be tomorrow (This has to deal with my bipolar disorder- it basically means that I don’t know how I’ll feel about any of this in the future/tomorrow)

But once the night has come
I can drink until the sun (Tonight, I’m going to do whatever I can to forget about all of this)
Ruins me, the way it always does (Tomorrow, I’ll be depressed about you again- Both the girl and the music industry)

Oh Tennessee, Tennessee,
Won’t you pray for me
You’ve taken all, all I had to give (I gave this my best shot.)

When all the love is gone
I guess it’s time for getting on
But you’ll always have the center of my heart (I’m over this, but just so you know, I’m never going to forget about you)

Houses made of cards
And smiles filled of scars
Are all I hear, when you whisper name (Mostly about the music industry – The idea that what you’re showing/promising musicians is completely fake.)

Lines and promises
Empty kisses
All your pretty words, they all just sound the same 
(Mostly about the music industry as well – All of the fake compliments and half-hearted agreements you give are just the same old thing and I’m done believing you.)

So a few further explanations- The music industry is a combination of DJ’s, other artists, producers, labels, etc… It’s not just some silly TV show- its the constant grind and posturing and backstabbing that goes on. (So you can blame LA for some of that too… It’s not all Nashville…) The problem I had with Nashville is that everyone had accents, and I couldn’t tell who was my friend and who wasn’t, because they all sounded like sweet, innocent people!

As far as my friend is concerned, I don’t know how she feels about anything, and at this point, I’m honestly over it. You can only do so much before you just have to let it go.

This song holds so much emotion to me that I wanted to name the entire record “Tennessee”, but that was vetoed. (Probably a good decision.) I don’t usually write in metaphors, but this was probably one of my favorite songs to write and sing on the album. The vocals on this track are also the original tracking vocals, and my producer Mike Butler liked them so much, that he kept them in. When the band that played on the record and I finished, we all sat back and stared at each other- we all loved this track. I hope you do, too.

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I Will Be There – “Goodbye, Good Times” – Part 3 of 10

New Album, "I Will Be There" Available on Randm Records!

New Album, “I Will Be There” Available on Randm Records!

The Co-Write
One of the things I love about Nashville is that rather than saying, “Let’s do sushi, sometime.” (Like in LA) they say, “Let’s cowrite sometime!” Cowriting is one of the most rewarding experiences that I’ve been able to take part in during my time as a songwriter. Hearing other people’s ideas and pulling from chord changes that I’ve never attempted brings out new melodies and ideas that I’ve never used before.

This is the story about the only cowrite that I’ve ever done with my guitar player, Ariel Levine, and how brilliant it was.

The Melody
Ariel came over and sat in my favorite chair at my pad. “Nuh uh…” I said… “that’s my spot.” (This is not vital to the story… I just wanted to let you all know that I’d treat you the same way, unless you’re elderly, or bigger than me.)

After we found the correct positions, Ariel grabbed my Taylor and showed me a chord progression he had been working on for a long time. I loved it immediately. I hummed out the melody for what would be our chorus immediately, before he even had a chance to say anything. I had walked into the other room to grab a cup of coffee, and while walking in the room,I said, “You know what that melody is, right? It’s hmmmm- HMMMM- HMm- Hmm -hmm- hmmmm- HMMMMM—- HMMMM -HMMmm- Hmmm- Hmmmm- Hm- Hmm- Hmmmm -Hmmmmm…” (Obviously, this is the best sentence I’ve ever blogged…)

Ariel looked up at me and gave me the single kindest compliment he’s ever given me. “Shit, dude… That’s exactly it… I’ve been working on this song for three years and you nailed it on your first try.” I honestly can say it was one of my proudest moments. (Ariel is NOT easily impressed.)

The Words
We came up with the idea of an “out of luck” character who just didn’t have a chance against the world. At each point of his story, we wanted him to just be completely unlucky- but not unlikeable. And that’s how the story began….

Started way back when I was just four years old
Never did as I was told
Oh no
20 years later and not a damn thing has changed
Yeah, I’m still the same
And I’m still deranged

Well the cops came and locked me up
All because I just couldn’t stop
And now I’m doing five
in the penitentiary

In the first chapter of our story, we’re not really sure who our character is, but most people just assume it’s me since I’m the one singing. I’m cool with that. Did you know that the most googled question about me is, “How old is Josh Damigo”? I’ve had many people already ask if I was 24, based on this song. I’ll take it. :-) Based on this chapter, I’m guessing that we’re all pretty much thinking he’s in jail for petty crimes… but nothing really big to make us dislike him.

Goodbye, all of my good times
I had some good times, saying goodbye

I just love the play on words in this song. It’s so fun to just move it back and forth. You can really say so much in so little words. You know that doing bad things can be fun… right? (I didn’t type that.. I’m not sure how it got in my blog, Grandma… Just ignore that….)

Now I’m out on the street trying not to break parole
I’m going to church
Sitting in the front row

They passed me the biggest offering plate I’d ever seen
I couldn’t help myself
There was so much “green”!

Well the Pastor called the cops
and they came and they locked me up
and now I’m doing ten
in the penitentiary

I love the idea of taking money OUT of the offering plate. I would never do that… but it’s so funny to me. I mean, here we have a guy who just got out of jail and is trying to do the right thing, but what are you going to do? They just put a big plate full of money in front of him… Surely, you wouldn’t put a plate of food in front of a starving man and expect him not to touch it? Obviously, he’s getting more years for this crime than the first one, because… well… he should’ve learned.

Now I’m out on the street trying to keep my nose clean
I got me a job
in a bowling league

Well the women’s team captain is a ball bustin’ son of a gun
She got in my face
So I just swung

Well, That was my third strike
Cause she was the Sheriff’s wife
And now I’m doing life
in the penitentiary

It’s an odd saying, “Keep my nose clean.” I’m sure it’s a drug reference, but I didn’t know that. I love the idea of criminals working at a bowling league. I just feel like a smokey room like that with the pool tables and cruddy bar would be a perfect place for our unlucky leading man. On top of that- the idea of a woman’s bowling league captain getting in the face of an employee. How annoying would that be? And a guy who’s had to be on edge in prison for that long? His only reaction would be to protect himself and go on the offensive. In light of the Ray Rice incident, the idea of hitting a woman is not funny, and therefore, I find it fitting that he gets life in jail…. (Even if it’s mostly because she was married to the sheriff… how unlucky can you get?)

Me and Big Larry busted out of the prison walls
And we made our way
To Mexico, yeah

A pretty señorita sang a song of sweet seduction
but just my luck
She was the Federali’s wife, WHY?

Now I’m wearing a blindfold
and I’m having my last smoke
and this firing squad
is gonna be the death of me

The lyrics were originally “Gay Larry” cause that’s funnier, but I love the idea that our character makes friends in jail and breaks out. We don’t hear about prison breaks much anymore. That’s kind of a bummer. It would make life much more romantic.

Ariel came up with his alliterated line of “señorita sang a song of sweet seduction” and wouldn’t let me change it, even though I tried to, a dozen times. It grew on me. I’m into it now.

I also dig that our character has not only angered the police in the US, but now, he’s also done so internationally. Poor guy…

Obviously, the only way to end a story like this is with a pun about firing squads and death.

By far, one of the most fun songs to play live on the record and gives me a ton of extra street credit, since there’s no way I could or would do any of the crimes in this story… But I could see situations where I accidentally flirt with the wrong señorita….

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I Will Be There – “Just Give Me a Call” – Part 2 of 10

Day two! Have I bored you with my writing yet? No? Good. Here we go.

The Call
I was dating my ex, and getting ready for tour when I penned this one. She was going through a rough decision as to what she should do as a career, and mentioned that she didn’t want to bother me with her “problems.”  This has always been a balance that I haven’t done well with, as I’m told by multiple people that I’m terrible to read on the phone. (Texts…etc…) A lot of my good friends have commented that they hate to call me because I always sound annoyed on the phone. I think I do have some sort of telephonic anxiety as to “get to the point… you’re annoying me…” and would rather not be on the phone than to be on the phone just listening to silence… (So annoying!!! Say something!!!) but I wouldn’t want someone to not call me because of that! I wrote this one to reassure her that I would always answer if she called.

“When the very earth you stand on
starts to tumble down

When you’ve overstayed your welcome
and you’re tired of this old town

When your friends, they all desert you
and you want to come around,

Just give me a call.” I guess this part is pretty self-explanatory. Basically, I wanted her to know that no matter what situation she was in, she could run to me, and I’d be there.

“When you’re tired of all the liars
and all the politics,
When your heart is nearly broken
and you feel like it could quit,
When your world just won’t stop spinning
and you want it all to end,
Just give me a call.” Again, pretty self explanatory. I think the one part that is a little deeper is the idea of the liars and politics. I can’t stand people who hit you up just when they need something. I regularly get calls from people out of the blue, just because they want a favor or advice. I’m more than happy to give it, if we have a good relationship/talk a lot, but if we haven’t talked in a year or two, and you’re just hitting me up because you want free tickets to an upcoming show… psh… that’s rude. The idea of “Politics” refers to those friends you have who treat your friendship like a power play. I watched the entire season of “House of Cards” in two days… don’t try to pull that stuff on me… :-P

“I will be there
to put the blue back in your skies,
I will be there
Before the tears fill up your eyes,
I will be there
To hold you through it all,
Just give me a call” -I think this has a dual meaning. Part of it is my faith- the idea that God loves me and could literally be there for me before tears show up in my eyes. The other part is a longing to be able to do this for someone. How great would it be to stop a friend from crying just by having them know that you’re there for them? The power in that is unbelievable to me. I hope that I’m able to supply that for someone one day. (If I haven’t already.)

When you’re searching for a reason
But it just can’t be found,
When you’re all filled up with poison
And your body’s on the ground,
When you want someone to love you
Without making a sound,
Just give me a call.  -I’d guess that the middle of this section has the deepest meaning of the whole track, and that people are going to get it wrong. (Which is fine! I want it to mean something different to everyone…) But since it’s my blog and I’m talking about it in my words, the lines, “When you’re all filled up with poison”, doesn’t actually refer to alcohol. It refers to negativity. Sometimes, you just need to talk to a friend who is positive to get you out of the funk, and that’s what I’m trying to be there.

The second part is “When you want someone to love you without making a sound.” I’ve already had people joke about this one and say, “What kind of sex is that?” HA! That’s not what I meant at all. The idea that I had was one of being next to someone that you cared about and just holding their hands. Sometimes, in life, there are no words that you can use to help someone out. If a child died, what do you say to the parents? “God has a plan?”, “It will get better?” even, “Sorry for your loss.” All seem like such terrible responses. I think it’s better to just hold them and say nothing at all. That’s what that line means to me.

The Second Meaning
The meaning that this has taken on for me since releasing the single, was that of hope for those who are depressed. In the light of Robin William’s suicide, I was incredibly moved to make sure that everyone I know and come in contact with, would feel important and loved. You never know how much someone is hurting inside, and I believe it’s good to think of those things whenever you see someone. I hope that I’m always someone who comes across to others as one who cares about their well beings, and even in an argument, they would know that I want their lives to be as beautiful as possible.

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