Day 11 -#BrokeAssTour

Sorry this has taken a bit to write. Today’s been busy with it’s own adventures and this cold is kicking my butt…

Drove all night till I got to San Diego. (took a long nap in Santa Barbara and then picked up a hitchhiker!) 🙂 Got back to my place in San Diego long enough to finish the last bit of antibiotics for my throat, and took off to sound check.

The show in San Diego was fantastic, but I sat backstage most of the night trying to put color in my face. Apparently I can turn an even ghostlier white than I usually am. Chris Wilson and his band played a riot of a set, and I hobbled up on stage like a dying old man.

I’ll say this, I put everything I had left on the stage, and then I went back and collapsed. I think I spread myself out too thin this time, and with mounting outside pressures, I’ve found myself pretty run down. Maybe I’m too old, maybe I don’t eat well enough, maybe I don’t sleep enough, maybe I’m just pushing too hard, but something needs to change.

I don’t know what it is but a half hour before sound check, I found myself deep in the midst of a panic attack. It felt like I had let everyone down. That this tour was a ridiculous waste of time. That I was trying to force something I colluding afford, be someone I couldn’t really be, do something that was beyond what I’m capable. Then it was my turn to play.

During the first song, I did a “I’ll Be” cover. It was almost laughable how incredibly rude people were. I can’t remember the last time that I saw so many people loudly walk out of a venue. Maybe they are used to loud bars or maybe I was being a little too trusting of a new audience, but when everyone finished settling, I was about 3 songs in, and faking a smile he best I could. I think sometimes that’s all one can do. Just smile and wait for things to get better.

Nah. I don’t wanna be negative. No more thinking like that. Truth is I felt good on stage. Today I’m not feeling well, and I’m having trouble sleeping, but tomorrow I’m going to wake up and fight again. I think this tour was about fighting. Fighting my demons, fighting my fears, pushing my limits, and now, I’m figuring out what’s next. Maybe I’ve steered this ship as far as I can, and I need someone else to come take it over, but tonight, I’m thankful that I have a home, a warm bed, and a full stomach. I might be sick and achy, but I’m doing the best I can, and I’m going to sleep well knowing that.

Goodnight everyone and goodnight #brokeasstour.

-j

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About Josh Damigo

Josh will cheerfully admit that he averaged less than a dozen people a show when he first began playing San Diego coffee houses. But he garnered diehard fans in the process, sold a few thousand copies of his homemade EP, Pocket Change, and picked up few awards along the way. After a traumatic family incident, Damigo retreated inward, and he ended up writing what would ultimately become his breakout debut, Raw. The album was true to its name and people noticed - Josh picked up two San Diego Music Awards for “Best Acoustic” and “Best Local Recording,” opened for the likes of Zac Brown, Jason Mraz, Eric Hutchinson, and Matt Nathanson, and had enough money and momentum to tour the country a few times over. A few years after Raw, there was his third release, Hope. Whereas Raw was a mostly acoustic, vulnerable affair, Hope was a celebration. Pleading and poignant, heartfelt and heavy hearted, it segued effortlessly from orchestral to alt-country, eventually landing him in the top 25 on the country charts. One of the hardest working indie singer/songwriters in Southern California, Damigo spent much of year with producer Mike Butler, gathering up some of the finest musicians in town, shaping his songs and sound further still for his latest album, "Just Give Me a Call", available now, on Randm Records. From the up-tempo single, “Just Give Me a Call”, to the simple sincerity of the ballad “Tennessee”, Josh’s songwriting skills are clear, his voice rings true and his goals remain the same as when he started - to keep making the best music he can, and to share it with all.
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2 Responses to Day 11 -#BrokeAssTour

  1. JJ Ramirez says:

    Josh, keep your head up brother. You are an amazing talent and even more so as a person, you have not wasted a single minute with this tour. I know that you have made many peoples days while you were out. We really enjoyed our night out to hear the great Josh Damigo, we don’t get out much alone without kids and when we choose to do something it is to see someone like you perform songs that we fell in love to. Really, Raven and I fell in love with each other listening to your music, so to see you in person singing those same songs makes our day, we will not soon forget it. Keep your head up Josh, you have many people that are behind you and you have an amazing talent that will shine very bright one day.
    JJ

  2. Karl says:

    Josh: My wife and I saw you at House of Blues in Vegas. Thought you were awesome. We came up and chatted with you a bit after the set, and were very pleased to hear you are from San Diego. We will definitely come to see you at Lestat’s.

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